I may look idle to many people around me right now, but for me, my mind and soul are always at work, constantly and continuously...so much, that it makes it so impossible for me to enjoy the much awaited and desired break, that ive been longing for, since so long...(though i do try n have my share of fun ;))
As i see myself in this phase, i realize how unsatisfied and unpredictable human mind can be!C'mon this is probably the only period of my life when i can just take my mind off everything else in the world with no responsibilities in hand and for some time, just enjoy each minute of the break that im in!But as i think this, im told by my mind, of the responsibilities i ve towards my own self and that is what keeps me going!
I get reminded of the phase, when i was studying or was at work, i used to find myself ,longing for this break from studies/work to spend my mind with my family, friends and to do the things that i never earlier had the time to do... I used to long for a break to just sit back and relax,to read, go for a jog/swim/drive or about anything,and do absolutely nothing apart from just sitting back and enjoying the phase of being "free", a time which rarely comes at my age and with our lifestyle!
Ive always thought of myself as the kind of girl who is hardworking, more than willing to get into the grind and looks for happiness in small things..the smallest of gesture or niceness gives me immense happiness..
But then if i do get happy with small things,which i really do, i ask myself as to y does my mind aim for highest of goals and targets...i should just be happy with the way things are!
The answers to all the above questions are within me...
Firstly i am happy, with the way things are! I am just hopeful of them getting better..which puts the pressure on my mind, so that i can go nearer and nearer to my long term goals.
Im unsatisfied: cos in my mind, i have formed a goal or target where i see myself few years down the line...and i feel that un-satisfaction is very important for human development...I feel the day im satisfied wit things around me...the possibility of growth finishes! To grow in life, u ought to be unsatisfied...whatever ur definition of growth maybe!
Im confused right now: yes, maybe i am, but again, confusion is very good...one gets confused cos one has options...one gets confused cos one wants to see and do something unique and out of the box...and not just become a part of the rat race! Isnt it always is good to have options to chose from..and even better to chose on ur own! Confusion always exists initially when one thinks of doing things in his/her own way and sees things differently!Having proper knowledge and advice plays a vital role in clearing up the confusion eventually!
So whatever be ur confusion/ goal/problem..however people may mock at u...or criticize u...take the criticism in pride..and keep going towards the things u want to do carrying along with u only ur principles and knowledge...be positive and never give up!
I never do! and everything else will follow on its own!
Remember, WOnders always take a lot of time( and a lot of hard work) to get created than simple super structures!!
Be good and be positive! Keep rocking!
Lotsa luv always!
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