GIGO......!!!!

Its been exactly a month today....

and i tell myself, almost angrily...what the hell is wrong with u gurl...till when will this really go on?...was this ur BIGG plan in life...is this where u'd thought u would be five years back or is it just a failed plan showing inefficiency in managerial decisions?...And then i quickly tell myself...Its alright!... even the best of managers have tasted failures at some point of time in their lives...failures have helped them most to go up high on the positions they are on...Go ahead Woman! Open ur eyes, Keep behind the failures and MOVE On!!!

As i am sitting here at the same place...doing the same thing...around the same set of people...having almost the same thoughts...i ask myself...even more strongly this time...In an era where things and people are changing oh so constantly...how come my life...or better to put it up as MY TIMES right now are so extremely stagnant?....should this stagnancy make me sad about not having to accomplish the goals planned by me for myself at the right time...or make me happier about having the privilege of living a life which is stable and different from the rest of the running world!

I get reminded of my seventh or eighth grade computer class which taught me a big principle of life, obviously it was always understood by me as JUST a principle in Computers till now...It was GIGO!...or better as Garbage in, Garbage Out!

This small four alphabetical word...puts across such a strong principle of life..."the more negativity u have inside u...the more negativity u face across in ur outside...". I now believe, even the human mind is like that of a computer (and its not just chacha chaudhari's mind which is like that of a computer, but trust me each one of us has a mind as strong as a computer :) ). The more Garbage u put in the mind cribbing and sulking about things not working right, the more Garbage would come out of u...making u inefficient and ruining better and brighter prospects of future!

Take each day as it comes, in a positive stride. Look out for happiness in small things in life...cos its their where it is hidden...do ur KARMA and sleep peacefully with a belief that u have brought a smile on the face of atleast one person through the day with ur actions!...rest everything will happen on its own...things will begin to work in ur favour and all the achievements will come running behind u! God is always with each one of us thinking nice for us!

After writing all the above down...i conclude...that my life may be stagnant for now....but i am not...I AM a CHANGED PERSON! A better person from what i used to be...I care more about people around me now...about myself now...I am trying to have a positive outlook in life and be strong...really strong...Maybe this was it!...this was the plan...and this is why things din't work out my way do far...to teach me all of this...Makes me feel happy!

hmmmm.....alright alright! too many thoughts to ponder about at one point of time...as i put down all my thoughts into words before action....i am reminded of the old but still valid saying...ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS! So Madame Nikita Jain, Put down ur words into action...so that the world knows u mean each and every word of it!

Papa...ill surely carve the niche u want me to...and live the kinda life u dream for me...ill do it for u...i know i will! Sorry for letting u down so far!

P.S. Thank u Blogspot for hearing my thoughts all the time and being so patient wit me!...:)

Lotsa love to all!!!

Muaah!

Family: Biggest Strength or Biggest Weakness!

When i was born...i knew nothing!...had no knowledge...no temperament...no likes...no dislikes...no friends...SIMPLY NOTHING! In short i was Dumb!

As i grew each day...each month...each year...my parents gave me the basic teachings of life...they taught me how to smile..how to eat...how to walk...how to talk...how to love and care...how to show emotions...and also how to read and write...

they put me in the best of school...gave me the best of education...helped me choose the best of friends...and made me form an outlook to differentiate between the right and the wrong...to differentiate myself from others and form an individuality!

In my childhood...every time i would do a mistake innocently, i would be corrected and a "NO" would be put forward....i din't realize the importance of such small small teachings then....i would most often think of having been born to "strict" parents...when i would not study...my mother would scold me and i would crib about it...did i realize then that had it not been for her scoldings, would i ever have been the educated person that i am...would i ever have been able to bring in discipline in my life?....would i ever have been able to write this all and publish my opinions?....

As i am growing up now...i realize the importance of having family around me....i realize the importance of every little thing taught by my parents to me...its their unconditional love for their children...that teaches us to pass on the same love unconditionally to others around us in most cases...in india, we are luckier to ve been able to be born to not only one set of parents but few set of parents (Read chacha chachi..etc) , grandparents...et all..who teach us something new every day at each walk of life...they pick us up with the same love and affection every time we fall despite our mistakes....teaching us an important principle of forgiveness!

As i look around in the society, i see a steep rise in the number of cases where sons leave their old parents at old age homes post marriage or even leave their homes leaving the old parents to fend a life for themselves...it makes me feel really disturbed and i ask myself...can there be any reason or justification for such an act...does it really matter who is right or who is wrong here...I DO NOT THINK SO! Dudes get a life...how much ever u may fool urself...there is no justification for such an act...what if ur parents would ve left u when u were getting too demanding in childhood...or when u were being arrogant and rude in teenage...

I realize...that our parents and family ve given each one of us a million reasons to always smile...but how many times have we really made a sincere effort to bring a smile on their faces...how many times have we cooked them their fav. meal...or sacrificed a precious thing or maybe taken a day's off from work for them...none or maybe few to think of...

So guys! Wake up and try and do something even if its really small...for ur parents...for that twinkle in the eye...or that precious smile...n see how life becomes beautiful...try it once in a day...or maybe once in month...or atleast once in a year...after all...what are we running so much for...

Im gonna try and do my bit....i hope u do urs...!!

love ya all!!!

Mumma and Papa...love u both v much!!!

A must read!!!!

http://ibnlive.in.com/blogs/rajdeepsardesai/1/61523/an-open-letter-to-uddhav-thackeray.html

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

As i put off the lights and prepare to sleep....i do my daily prayer and thank god for the day that has passed...but today is a different night...i go back in memories of all the 23 years and think of the treasures that i have already collected in the path of life...

During the testing times and all this while...i've been cribbing in front of god and questioning his love for me...but i realize, as i lay down on my bed today that i was wrong...i've really been blessed...god has given me a thousand reasons to thank him for...its me who has been turning a blind eye towards them...ive been taking all his blessings so far towards me for granted...but not now...

i sincerely thank god today for enriching my life with the treasure of having such wonderful and beautiful set of family and friends...god has been really kind so far...he blessed me and gave birth to me to the most loving and caring parents and gave me a younger brother to pass my love toand die for...

when i was young i thought my world was enough with these three people...but god loved me more and sent in my life these so many wonderful people to take care of me..and guide me at every walk of life...

each one of my friend is special in his/her own way and has the most special corner in my heart...i often wonder whether my heart is big enough to put them all in there or is their heart bigger to bear me and my tantrums...:)

friends...i know i ve been taking all u guys so much for granted all this while...but each one of u ve stood by me and been there for me...ur love for me is so unconditional...im truly touched...

my acts of going into HIBERNATION (as harshita would say) every now and then....not responding to ur phone calls...not meeting u enough...and ofcourse the famous 6 month phase are enough reasons for any person to break the ties...but i was never left alone...

Divya, Neha, Vd, Harshita, Sona, Megha, Mridul, Neha didi, Sarkar, Harshel, Deepti, Harsha, Deepali, Arihant.....and so on and so forth....each one of u is important in my life...and as i think of special memories with all of u...which are truly ours i pen them down today...

To start with...my dearest tiny...our journey together has been the longest...and oh so wonderful...from being diaper buddies..to classmates..to picnic and cycling partners..to neighbours..to the fights for dolls..to the kitchen set..to studying together (never worked out though)..to sharing guy issues...to till date...we're more of sisters than friends right...if only either one of us would ve been a guy...we really would ve got married to each other making everyone happy!...;)

Nehaaa...woman...what would ve i done in maths without u da...my owe u for developing my leastEST interest in maths which is due to u and u know that...thank u for always listening to me and being so patient with me...i envy u for being my mom's khoyi hui beti...uff...my mother loves u more than she loves me..wonder y..:)i love u soo soo much...lots n lots of CHURAN (Read hugs n kisses) for u!

Vd....muaah muaah...miss our long long walks...and the long long talks...and the post walk n talk icecream/coffee/nariyal pani/or even a cheese pizza...im so happy for u to ve finally found and carved a niche for urself...truly deserving..holi's approaching soon and what is holi without u and all of us at ur home...ve no clue...;)

Harshitaaaa (HUC) ..ure my birthday buddy...n we share a whole lot of things in common...including nakshatra's(is tht wht it is cald)...bachpan gypsy b'day treats wit loads of tip i must say...fighting spirit...similarities in temparament...enormous singing talent(Lab pe aati hai dua...la la la)...n ofcourse non stop talking capability...blah blah blah blah...can't forget the maths tuitions with neha n u...

Sona my darling...i am sometimes totally amazed at the amount of courage, determination and stamina uve...something to really learn from...what's inside is what is outside for this girl and thats what i love most about u...u've made us learn how to be good listeners ;)....and ofcourse we all need a lil bit of cooking lessons from u...

Megha bete...we might ve had lost a lot of update on each others lives in the past few years...but im glad with u around now..its coming back..:)...as i go back in the memories of our school days...im filled wit a wholesome of good memories wit u...u know wht i am talking abt...thanks for always being the nice and warm person that u r...love u truly...!

Mridul...Mridul...Mridul...i will always love u my dear...uve given me some of my nicest memories of life which shall always be cherished and kept safely...the sweetest friend that u r..do not change...u r probably the one person who knows me the best...i believe we share some past life connection wit each other...an everlasting bond...good luck for ur new life and god bless u always...

Harsha, Sarkar, Deepali and deepti...thank u for making my bombay stay so homely that i never missed home as much...our intellectual discussions...monday meetings...wing work...tv surfing...night walks...under the banyan tree dinners...colaba shopping...n many more will always be cherished...

Nehaaa...u know wht u mean to me...u r the most caring roommate i would ve ever wanted...ur advice n guidance has always been precious...ur approach towards life is something to learn from...ur god's way of filling in the empty place for my elder sister...and ofcourse as Rohit would say...we are ur illegitimate children and will always be ;)...love u for bearing me so far...

and last but not the least...Harshel and Arihant...thank u for being the younger pillars of my life...thank u for the love and respect that u guys give me...thank u for listening to me always...and lastly thank u for bothering to call me to bombay in every single call that we make since almost forever now and yet not giving up...:)

One person that i ve forgotten in all the above is my dearest Vikas!....not being a family or a friend..he still occupies an important place in our hearts and lives...actually he is Family!...the most caring person that ive come accross in my life...he's really been sent as god's way of taking care of all of us...i don't think me or my family can ever repay back him in any way for all the love and affection he shows towards us...

How can i forget...Neeta...Arpita...Shilpi...Shweta...Shruti...Shrikant Sir...Sanjay Sir...Dolly...Bindiya...Priyanka...Shreya...Shaveta...Chik...Aj...Sammy...Nattu...Siddharth...Gaurav Bhaiya...Mami...and all those who may i have skipped to mention....thank u for making me learn and grow as a person at every walk of life!

Before i sleep and wake up to a new and fresh start tomorrow...as i begin my life afresh and start studying...i just wish to say to all of u guys above...i truly love u...i thank each one of u for making all these years of my life so blissful and happy...unsure of what the future holds for me...as i look forward to happier and better days full of new opportunities...i assure u all of one thing...ill always be there for u...and love u all in the same way...

Good luck to each one of u...may god give u all a lot of success in life...and may our friendship remains forever!!!

Lots n lots of love! Muaaaaah!